fear
What are you afraid of?
People ask me this a lot. If people don’t know what you’re afraid of I think it makes you seem less human because they don’t know your weakness. I give them a pretty general answer every time because I really don’t know. Sometimes I just smile and try to give a witty reply (which doesn’t work too often) and hope a new, better question comes up. The only thing that comes to my mind is really personal and I don’t like to share all my family business with the media
When I was young we were poor but I got along all right because of my parents. I wasn’t afraid of much then because somehow I knew they would always back me up. I even went along with the responsibility of growing up in America to serve in the US Army. They said I could be part of this special service that would make some of the work less dirty but I didn’t see much of a point in it. I figured these other guys were over there doing their part and they didn’t get offered something like that. There wasn’t any need to make anyone feel worse than they had to.
My mama died in 1958…I had to come back to America to see her after the doctor told me she was real sick. It feels like a lifetime ago but I can remember getting the phone call like it was yesterday. It’s strange how time works like that. I didn’t believe it at first but when I got to the hospital I guess that was when it really hit me. Here is this woman who you grew up with thinking that she’s always going to be by your side and all of the sudden she’s just gone. She was diagnosed and the doctor said she was real sick but it wasn’t real closure. When I would go see her she’d still smile a little and talk to me. I was sure she was going to get out of there.
What I fear most then would have to be death. It doesn’t have to be dying early or dying when you’re real old….it doesn’t matter if you go to Heaven or somewhere else. Leaving things behind back here on earth is what scares me: people, possessions and impressions. There is a lot I want to do before I die and Lord knows I’m getting to do a lot of it because of my occupation. I’m very grateful to everyone for that. Still, I wonder every day if I’m really making people happy or if they’re proud of me and what will happen after I’m gone. It’s a lot to worry about. That and there isn’t much known about what happens after death. You just have to have faith and that’s the only answer you’re gonna get. 507
People ask me this a lot. If people don’t know what you’re afraid of I think it makes you seem less human because they don’t know your weakness. I give them a pretty general answer every time because I really don’t know. Sometimes I just smile and try to give a witty reply (which doesn’t work too often) and hope a new, better question comes up. The only thing that comes to my mind is really personal and I don’t like to share all my family business with the media
When I was young we were poor but I got along all right because of my parents. I wasn’t afraid of much then because somehow I knew they would always back me up. I even went along with the responsibility of growing up in America to serve in the US Army. They said I could be part of this special service that would make some of the work less dirty but I didn’t see much of a point in it. I figured these other guys were over there doing their part and they didn’t get offered something like that. There wasn’t any need to make anyone feel worse than they had to.
My mama died in 1958…I had to come back to America to see her after the doctor told me she was real sick. It feels like a lifetime ago but I can remember getting the phone call like it was yesterday. It’s strange how time works like that. I didn’t believe it at first but when I got to the hospital I guess that was when it really hit me. Here is this woman who you grew up with thinking that she’s always going to be by your side and all of the sudden she’s just gone. She was diagnosed and the doctor said she was real sick but it wasn’t real closure. When I would go see her she’d still smile a little and talk to me. I was sure she was going to get out of there.
What I fear most then would have to be death. It doesn’t have to be dying early or dying when you’re real old….it doesn’t matter if you go to Heaven or somewhere else. Leaving things behind back here on earth is what scares me: people, possessions and impressions. There is a lot I want to do before I die and Lord knows I’m getting to do a lot of it because of my occupation. I’m very grateful to everyone for that. Still, I wonder every day if I’m really making people happy or if they’re proud of me and what will happen after I’m gone. It’s a lot to worry about. That and there isn’t much known about what happens after death. You just have to have faith and that’s the only answer you’re gonna get. 507